Thursday, July 1, 2010
HOME SWEET HOME
My little place is musty because there isn't enough ventilation. It is cold, even in the summer. It doesn't have a kitchen. I rarely have hot water and when I do, it doesn't last long. I take quick showers. The electricity goes out often and then the water disappears. I hate to admit this but almost everyday I find dead cockroaches on my floor. Twice I found scorpions. (At least they were dead!) But it is the place I call home now, mostly because of Chico. Nothing like the love of a dog to make a place comfortable. I wrote in a previous blog about lacking a sense of purpose. I sure have it now. It takes a great deal of effort to live here. When I am here I am not so insulated from the outside world. Most of the time I have my door open. That uncomfortable edge keeps me on my toes and feeling more creative. Another good thing, I never worry about break ins.
I am very lucky. Chico belongs to my landlord so he has all the responsibility and I have all the fun. I like that system. A borrowed dog. Kind of like house sitting. I go in and borrow beautiful homes. They don't belong to me. I just enjoy them. I pay none of the bills.
I am going to the States next week but I may be back here soon. I am missing it already and I haven't even left. I feel badly about leaving Chico again, just when he is getting used to having me back. But I have to take care of some business up there. I am glad that dogs are so forgiving. I have been told that they have no sense of time. Wish I could be like that; always living in the moment. It is a good goal for me. There I go again, living in the future with goals.......
Post script: I just watched an amazing DVD: Ambition to Meaning, Finding Your Life's Purpose Starring Dr. Wayne W. Dyer Directed by Michael Goorjjian. Very inspiring!