I went to the spa today in San Juan Cosala and on my way home I stopped for lunch at the Boston Deli. Emily was there and we had Gigi's delicious specials. I was telling Emily about my bad experience with the nasty comment on my blog and how upsetting it was for me. She asked me to tell her what was written. Up to that point, I hadn't said the words out loud. They were too shameful. I had just internalized them and felt hurt and violated. But when I said them to her, she laughed. They were so outrageous that they couldn't be taken seriously. And I laughed too. I could just imagine some very confused and angry person writing them and sending them off to me, a total stranger. I am putting the two photos of me back on here because it is ridiculous to let someone like that control my life in ANY way. Laughing about this experience with Emily reminds me of jokes where some pervert exposes himself to women and they just point and laugh. Kind of takes away his power to shock. Thank God for friends, for Emily and everyone who also wrote to me about this matter. Life is good.
When I was in my early twenties I found an old metaphysical book. I can't remember the title of it now. I just remember the first words that were supposed to be repeated daily. They were: There is no evil. There is only infinite good. Of course these words are simplistic and corny but they helped me when I said them. They lifted me up to a higher state of consciousness. And that is a good thing.