Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Still in Hiding from the World

I haven't been writing on my blog much because I don't want to depress you. I am finding it harder each day to just stay in my little casita area. In a way, it is a blessing that the days are shorter now. That makes a few less hours to feel badly about not being out in that beautiful sunshine.

I don't even have any new books to read here. I have watched all the movies my son downloaded on my computer. I tried to access some free web sites with movies with no luck. It was just a waste of time. Maybe I am don't know enough about computers to be able to do that. I get frustrated and quickly give it up.

On Thursday I see the doctor again and he will take x rays. Hopefully, it will be good news. Hopefully, I will be walking around within a month or so.

On the 8th I go up to El Parque to house sit. Maybe the change of scenery will lift my spirits.   The woman I am house sitting for knows that I can't get around. Fortunately, she has a cat and not a dog. I guess that cat and I will become good friends after three weeks of sitting around the house together.

I will miss Chico. He has been wonderful company for me.  But cats can be fun too. I can't think of any animal that I don't love. Well, maybe I would have a hard time with a pig in the house. I remember once watching a television program about a pig that was a house pet. His owner had a stroke and was on the floor and couldn't get up. The pig ran into the road and wouldn't get up until someone in a car stopped and then the pig ran into the house. The man followed him. The woman's life was saved. And don't tell me that animals don't have feelings........

Again I think all of you for writing and giving me encouragement. That helps. I really feel sad for people who are shut-ins. I don't know how they manage. 

25 comments:

  1. I have a very old pot belly pig who lives in the barn,only four teeth left kind of old, he has the run of the pasture, he's not a bad pet. He keeps the apples cleaned up in the orchard, that's his main job around the homestead. He is always popular when we have parties, the kids like him. And, he does not come in the house...

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  2. Hi Norm, Lucky you. A pet pig. Maybe it will save your life too..... Thank you for the story. I love to hear about animals. Patricia

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  3. Tell us tales of how you are getting your meals cooked. I assume you must be using crutches to get around. I found that writing about my restrictions made me laugh about its absurdity.

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  4. Hi Steve, Thanks for writing. I know you understand what I am going through. I don't have a kitchen in my little casita which makes things easier for me because everything is lower down. I can reach my microwave and two burner hot plate from my rolling office chair. I am getting very good at pushing myself across the room with it. I use the crutches to go into the bathroom to wash up or was my dishes. Sometimes I can talk friends into bringing me precooked food. Yes, I feel absurd. But I am not laughing. Maybe in the future I will look back on this an laugh. P

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  5. Hi Patricia,
    Hoping you get good news on Thursday!
    Glad you can at least see sunshine and warmth. Our "endless hot dry" summer seems to finally be over here...it's really cool, frost a couple of days ago and rain tonight.
    Thanks again for your blog. I enjoy learning about Mexico, as well as your perspective on life. Get well!
    Karen in VA

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  6. Hi Karen, WOW I am getting all these messages from people telling me how winter has arrived up north. I am glad to still be in the sunshine. thank you for the good wishes. Patricia

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  7. Hi: Ozus2 on Youtube downloads shows on her channel as a favour to those who don`t get them if that helps you out!!! Take care Marilyn

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  8. Thank you Marilyn.I will check that out. Patricia

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  9. Time to cheer up a little............at least while writing...........your other posts (one under another name) are not so depressing

    Come on.......you broke your ankle........you do not have an incurable illness, you will be able to get up and around again.

    Enough of the pity party......

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  10. Thanks for writing. This is exactly why I am not writing on my blog much now.... I want it to be honest. And honestly I have taken some blows, ones I won't even mention here but that have really shaken my faith in my friends, besides my physical pain, I have been in a lot of emotional distress. I figure it is better to just not write than write something that isn't real for me at all. P

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  11. Since I am having these personal problems at the moment, your comment really brought it home to me that I need to not write on my blog until I am in a better space.... Read the other posts instead...They are not personal.......And by the way, what is your name? Thanks, Patricia

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  12. Dear Patricia don't let a few bad apples ruin your mood . There are a lot of us out in cyberspace that care and understand what you are going through. One of my greatest fears as a single woman has always been slipping and breaking an ankle. Who would take care of me? Certainly not my adult children with their work and busy lives. And friends don't always come through for you as you are probably finding out.

    Others vent and share a lot more on their blogs than you do. Life is not alwayts rosy is it? Vent if you want to!! Please keep us up to date on your progress. You have friends out here that care. How was your appointment yesterday? Please let us know!

    Lucy from Calgary

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  13. Hi Lucy, Thanks so much for your kind letter. I had decided not to write on my blog at all after that last comment. But you have restored my faith in people. The doctor didn't come to Ajijic yesterday so I won't see him until next week. A couple of women whom I had thought were my good friends have completely abandoned me. So I over reacted to that mean e mail....Thanks, Patricia

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  14. Hola from Portland, OR, a very cold 50 degrees today! And can you tell me WHY I left Ajijic 2 days ago??!!! (Oh yea...that WORK thing!) I just wanted to post a quick message, mostly for your readers - about you & this current situation w/your ankle.

    I was lucky enough to visit Patricia while she was doped up w/a morphine drip at the Ajijic Clinic on check-out day. I saw firsthand what it was like to lie in a bed in a non-air conditioned clinic. (It was HOT in there.) I got to witness telling the clinic staff of an amount of pesos no longer in her purse. I got to witness what it was like to have to PAY the clinic for ALL surgery, etc. costs before they'd allow you to leave. I had the PRIVILEGE of helping Pat through that first night of incredible pain after leaving the hospital, still quite high on pain meds & morphine, unable to even use the restroom alone. (That rolling office chair has been an amazing tool over the past 3 weeks!) I've visited w/Patricia practically every day or so over the past 3 weeks, whenever I could. I've helped her sort out some clothing, get bottled water, washed a couple of sinkfuls of dishes in her bathroom, brought her some food. She has been a REAL TROOPER through all of this ordeal. Hopefully, I've made her laugh a few times as well. She has also helped me during these 3 weeks, insisting I go see xxx, visit yyy, etc. so that my vacation & check-out visit to the Ajijic area wasn't wasted. I had a few of my own little mini-dramas while there (chest pains & a doctor visit/EKG exam, a housemate who had an emotional meltdown directed at me, kind strangers who took me in, etc.). Through all my MY stuff, she was there for me, too. Patricia is used to being active; it's tough for her to be stuck in that casita while she imagines everyone else is always out having fun (which isn't always the case!). I've only just now read a few of her comments over the past few weeks, and I imagine they were written only when she had no guests or others bringing her food, support, conversation and love. Life is sometimes lonely, particularly if you don't have some good reading material to while away your days. And to SEE the sunshine from your bed but not be able to get to it for 3+ weeks? Really hard on a person. Hand in there girlfriend! You'll be up & out of there in a few days now, and staying at El Parque will be really good for you! Sit out on the patio & get some sunshine! There are TONS of free books in the clubhouse & I'm sure Cathy or others can bring you books to read. You can order food from Tony's & Las Margaritas in San Antonio, & the guards can bring it to you! (They're very sweet guys.) I missed out on doing all that walking/exploring of the Ajijic area with you, but I'll NEVER forget that you are one of my very best friends in the world. All my love .... Gayle

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  15. Thank you Gayle, I sincerely appreciate all that you did for me. And thank you for your emotional support with your comment. I have had a hard morning. Your friend, Patricia

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  16. By the way, my 'bucket list' included witnessing Dia de los Muertos in Mexico. I was told by the El Parque gardener that the San Antonio Tlayacapan cemetery 1/2 block away would be festive all day on Nov 2nd - well into the night & the next morning - with Mariachi & Banda musicians, food/drink for sale, tons of people/families from all over Mexico taking photos, etc. Cathy & I had dinner, then walked to the cemetery around 7:30pm. IT WAS ALL OVER! Whatever had taken place, the only thing remaining were votive candles on a few tombs. And during the afternoon about 3pm, I went to Chapala to see the 3 block long altars in front of homes. Guess what? They were only STARTING to put them up! So, my friend ... perhaps you didn't miss a thing by staying in the casita & recuperating! Love ya ... Gayle.

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  17. Hi Gayle, Sounds like I wasn't the only one who missed out on all of the Day of the Dead fun..Thanks again for writing. Your friend, Patricia

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  18. To Anonymous on 11/4 who told Pat to stop her pity party: You're an asshole. Stop indulging in your Asshole Party.

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  19. Thank you Leslie..... I appreciate that. And thank you for stopping by to visit today. Let's get Chico and Boomer together more often. I think they will become great friends. And we can never have too many friends. Dogs or humans, we all need friends. Your friend, Patricia

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  20. The worst thing about the poster is that he or she is hiding behind the anonymity of the internet. He/she doesn't have the courage of his/her nasty, self-righteous, cold-hearted, bitchy convictions. Like "Road Ragers" who are quiet and nice to you in person, then get behind the wheel of a car. ANYWAYS - forget that mofo. I'm so glad I stopped over. Chico is so adorable. He and Boomer will definitely be great friends. We'll be back over soon!

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  21. Hi Leslie, Thank you for being on my side. I really appreciate you.....Your friend, Patricia

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  22. It sounds like you have lots of 'e' support. Don't pay any attention to aholes who have nothing better to do that bring people down....Hang in there!!Marilyn

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  23. Hi Marilyn, Thank you for writing and for your support. patricia

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  24. I'm writing to you from Thunder Bay Ontario where we are waiting for old man winter and getting ready for christmas. Today it was about 50 F. which is way above our normal temp. I tried making cedar wreaths which didn't really work out (took toooo long etc.) and ending up having a glass of wine which made the wreath I made look really good!!!! Hang in there and focus on the ankle and all the good things in your life.....:o) Marilyn

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  25. Hi Marilyn, Thank you for your comment and support. I have been going through a terrible depression. It is so hard to be isolated from the world. Everything is passing me by. But maybe I will be up and about by Christmas. Thank you again, Patricia

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