Sunday, November 28, 2010
Dealing with Pain
I haven't been writing much. I have been so discouraged about the slow process of healing and all the pain involved that I didn't write. No reason to share this hard process with others. It is a private, continuing struggle that sometimes never seems to end or make any progress. It has been seven weeks now since the surgery and I still can't walk. Discouraging. So I am not writing on the blog until I feel happier. We all suffer and no reason to add my suffering into the mix. I hope to one day be walking around again.
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i've been following your blog for a few weeks but this is the first time i've written. i'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time. i can't imagine what it would be like to be immobile, but at the same time, you need to have faith that you will walk again. it has to be hard being patient, but you need to let your body fully heal. you are blessed to have so many friends, friends who have brought you meals, friends who have taken you out to eat. friends are among God's greatest gifts, and you are lucky to have so many. i hope and pray that you will be walking soon, but you can't rush things. it's best to let yourself get better than to try to walk before you're ready, even if it is frustrating. we just have to listen to our bodies. i hope you enjoy reading or have other hobbies that you can do while sitting, that will help keep your mind off things. as we all know, depression sucks, so try to be positive and count your blessings. i know that's easier said than done. i hope you will continue to write because i would think it would help to get things off your chest.
ReplyDeletetake care,
teresa in lake stevens
Hi Teresa, Thank you for your kind and thoughtful words. I hate this healing process. But you are right. I can't hurry it. The harder I try to do that, the harder it will be to heal. I appreciate you writing to me. Patricia
ReplyDeleteyou're very welcome. hang in there. like you said, we all suffer in one way or another or have challenges, but we have to make the best of each and every day. and yes, giving your body all the time it needs to heal is very important.
ReplyDeleteagain, take care.
teresa in l.s.
Hi Teresa, Again, thank you for your loving words. Patricia
ReplyDeleteYou can always count on Teresa. She is a true saint.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. It does get better. I speak from recent experience.
Hi Steve, Thank you for your kind words. Yes, I gathered that from Teresa's e mail. I am lucky to have such good people helping me out. Thank you. Patricia
ReplyDeleteI have thought about retirement in Mexico. It seems that retirement and diminishing health go hand in hand. Consequently what you are going through is an important part of the decision making for others thinking about a smiler journey.
ReplyDeleteThe insight you provide lets one see the do it on your own without family aspects. Thank you for sharing both the good and the bad.
Hi G. David, Thank you for writing. I have been very discouraged lately. I am sitting in my casita thinking of other places to live...Ecuador? San Blas? I don't know yet what I will do. I have lots of time to think about it while my ankle heals. I am glad I had a good doctor.... I appreciate you writing to me. Helps a lot with my depression . Patricia
ReplyDeletePatricia, I'm sorry to hear you're suffering and laid up. Please don't hesitate to write what you're feeling, good or bad. I agree with Teresa that it might help you.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear that you have friends to help you. I wish I lived close enough to bring you some meals.
I'll be praying for your full recovery, and that God gives you comfort during this time of resting.
Hi: Hang in there, I'm sure your ankle is slowly improving!!!Easy for me to sit here and type this but I read your blog faithfully and hope for your sake things are improving....Try hard to be positive, you have a lot of online readers caring & wishing you well!!!!Take care, Marilyn
ReplyDeletewow-steve says i'm a saint. well, i did get named after st. teresa. you see i'm cuban and my dad wanted to name me after his mom whose name was adela. i don't like that name in spanish, not one bit, although adele does sound pretty in english. well, as luck would have it, i was born on oct. 15th-St. Teresa's Day. hence my maiden name was teresa adela acosta.
ReplyDeletei met steve last year in april when i went to salem to visit him and mike and cynthia (do you read their blog?) in january, my husband, older son and i spent a few days in eugene, then stopped in salem on the way home and had lunch with steve. he is a great guy. mike and cynthia have since moved back to the seattle area, and we have gotten together twice-they are such a nice couple. funny how one can make good friends throgh blogging, or in my case reading blogs. perhaps one day you and i can meet, although it may be quite some time before i make it back to mexico.
just curious, why are you thinking of moving away from that area?
take care and have a good week! try to stay positive. if you need a good laugh, check out lolcats and loldogs.
your new blog buddy, (although a good person, not really a saint ;-)
teresa in lake stevens
Hi Patricia,
ReplyDeleteI have been reading about your injury and your slow recovery. By the way, I'm one of those people enjoying Oregon weather. Patricia, do you think you're getting adequate medical care for this injury? I'm concerned that you can't walk yet---are you up on your feet at all? My husband broke his leg in a twisting break just above the ankle. He broke the main bone, and then broke the small bone into pieces, and had to have surgery to pin the small bone in six places. He was on his feet in no more than four weeks. I encourage you to get a second opinion, or to see a specialist if possible. Forgive me if you have already done this and I just missed it in your blog.
I wish you happier healing, and as soon as possible.
Lynn in Oregon
Hi Marilyn, I woke up this morning in a terrible depression and thinking of quitting the blog. It all feels like too much effort. Seeing your e mail gave me a feeling that there is a reason to continue with it. Thank you so much. Patricia
ReplyDeleteHi Teresa, Thank you for writing. Is Lake Stevens in Oregon? My son lives in Portland. Sometimes I visit him there. Why am I thinking of moving? It is getting more expensive here and my casita is very cold. I also miss the beach. Maybe I will live at a beach half the year and when it gets hot, go to the mountains. Interesting about your name. Hope to meet you one day. Patricia
ReplyDeleteHi Lynn, Thank you for writing and for your concern. I see the specialist again soon. Maybe an ankle break takes longer to heal? The doctor told me not to put more than ten percent of my weight on it. So, I am being very careful. Better to heal more slowly and right than to hurry it up and injure it again. Thank you, Patricia
ReplyDeleteThank you Sarah, I am so surprised to see all this outpouring of love and support for me. Yes, I can use all the prayers I can get right now. Thank you. Patricia
ReplyDeletegood morning patricia,
ReplyDeletelake stevens is in wa. about a 45 minute drive ne of seattle.
i could see where you would want to move out of a cold casita. i don't like being cold at all. i like your idea of living in one place during the hot weather and another when it's cold. that's what we hope to do in retirement. we will keep our house here, we just bought it last year, and plan to spend 4 months in warmer climes, mexico, central or s. america. hopefully we'll be able to afford going to different places for the winter, i love to travel so that would be ideal, but who knows what God has in store.
i'm sorry to hear you woke up depressed. are you taking anything for the depression? i've always been a very anxious person and after years of worrying about every little thing, i finally got on some medication which has been a Godsend. if your depression is due to the slow process of healing, perhaps you can take something temporarily.
well, as you can see, you have a lot of faithful readers. please don't give up writing. perhaps you can write a new post soon. and as one person said, you can write about the good and the bad. life is a series of ups and downs-we all go through them.
did you take those pictures of ajijic that are on the sidebar? they are beautiful!
well, i need to get a few things done before heading out to work.
take care and keep the faith,
teresa
Hi Teresa, Thank you for writing again. I feel less depressed after having company and getting the nice comments on my blog. Funny how friends can work like antidepressants. I like that idea of moving from the beach to the mountains at different times of the year. Unfortunately, the nicest times of each place are always also the most expensive times. Many people with money here have two houses, a beach house and a mountain house. Lucky people Thank you for being concerned about me. No, those photos were taken by other people. Patricia
ReplyDeleteHi again Patricia: We are going to try Buscerias (heading into retirement)in the spring. Never been to that area before...Just a thought...Take care and keep hanging in there, ankle and all!!!!Marilyn
ReplyDeleteHI Marilyn, Thank you for that suggestion. My friend Pat runs the MexicoGuru site and she has a test on it to see what area of Mexico is right for you. I took it and came up with Buscerias. I have been there. I don't like it much. It is very expensive. I think I prefer San Blas. At least I can afford San Blas and I like the beach better there. Send photos of Buscerias when you get there. Thanks, Patricia
ReplyDeleteThanks for the info...we're open to suggestions, how far is San Blas from Buscerias? The people that own the house where we'll rent the main floor are from Saskatoon, Sask. If it's expensive that lets us out....you mean food or rent....We need to be away from here (Thunder Bay, Ontario) for at least 4 months...Hope your feeling better...just for you info to help your mood, it's 23 F. and freezing cold here with a wind of about 20 mph. My grandkids needed a ride from school because the bus driver couldn't get out of her road because it was too slippery!!!I didn't have the heart to tell them I wasn't planning to get dressed today!!!I'm sure you know what that is like!!!Anyway I picked them up and they made me laugh like crazy over their antics. They brightened my day!!!Keep in touch, Marilyn PS I'm going to google San Blas..
ReplyDeleteHi Marilyn, Sounds miserable up there. Yes, it makes me feel better to be here in the morning sunshine. San Blas is just north of Buscerias. But it isn't for everyone. There isn't much to do there, few restaurants. It is a poor Mexican village. There are little Jejenes, like tiny mosquitoes. They keep people away because it can be intolerable to be there with them. No one has figured out a way to get rid of them. So no one likes to stay there. Very few expats are there. Patricia
ReplyDeleteHello Patricia,
ReplyDeleteI just found your blogspot; I am sorry to hear things are so hard for you right now. I will only say I am familiar with hardships and depression, so I understand what you are experiencing. Try to remember that although this season of winter is long, spring will surely come again.
You are in my prayers.
Thank you. And thank you for writing. I think I have said this before, I need all the prayers I can get. Patricia
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Thank you. Will do. Patricia
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