The External vs. Internal Realities

I am still in my little casita. I know everything here by heart. The most exciting moment of the day was when I saw a scorpion in my other room. It was close enough for me to reach with the mop and I pounded on it until I was sure it was dead. I couldn't reach down to throw it away. I had to call my landlord here to do that for me.

Other than that, it has been an internal kind of day, sitting here for hours trying to figure things out on my computer. I like doing computer work  but I also like to exercise. I really miss my walks and I think Chico does too.  I don't know how people can sit in front of the computer all day long without going crazy.  I feel like I went crazy today with all those computer hours.

I have no insights. I have nothing but a huge headache. Some days are like that. The days are shorter now because the clocks were set back. The sun is already starting to go down and I don't think it is much after seven p.m. I have no idea of what time it is now. My watch is in the other part of my room and that takes some thought to get over in that direction. Everything takes time and thought. So, you can see the big excitement was the scorpion. That is the second one I have found here in the last week or so. My landlord says it is time to spray my casita. I will have to sit in the yard until it airs out. I will be forced to go out there even though I am afraid of falling and hurting myself again.

I am becoming a big baby here. It has been over three weeks since my surgery. The doctor said the first three weeks were the worst. Maybe it will get easier from now on. I sure hope so. Again I thank all of you for continuing to write to me.  The Day of the Dead holiday has already started. Lots of fireworks and right now I hear drums in the distance. It is very noisy around town these days. I am missing it all.....