Monday, September 28, 2015

Morning Thoughts---Moving


I am moving tomorrow. I hope to get it all done in one day but I have accumulated a lot of stuff in eight years. I came down with two suitcases. Now I have three rooms full of furniture and boxes and boxes of things. Useless things but still........ Being surrounded by these useless things helps me to feel secure. Sameness in the midst of constant change. I know it is a shallow security but it helps me to maintain from day to day. Until I have to move!  Then it all becomes a burden.

I only slept two hours last night. Tossing and turning. Thinking about having to take all this furniture and boxes down with ropes from the upstairs decks. They came up that way because there is a very narrow turn in the stairs and nothing large will fit through. I fell down that turn a couple of weeks ago. Hopefully my knee will heal with time. It is much better today. I have to not do too much in this move. That is hard for me. I always want to get in there and help.

I woke up this morning being very angry at the maid who talked my landlord into getting rid of me and the morning maid. We have been with him for eight years. She even got paid to do all that talking. But I know that being angry at her is just hurting me. She did what she had to do to survive. She has an entire family dependent on her. This is her way out. Her thoughts do not include how she has disrupted our lives. But anger isn't a rational emotion. It just comes, like a tidal wave. And then it goes.

I am guessing that I will be much happier living alone in my own place. And with a kitchen. It is hard to imagine having a kitchen after eight years of washing dishes in my tiny bathroom sinks. And my own garden just outside of my bedroom. And only one block to the bus. No more trudging up this hill. And Chico will be able to take walks with me again because it is closer for me to come and go.

So I need to just get on with the huge task at hand and forget about my emotions or else I will have yet another sleepless night ahead. Thank you all for your encouragement.

17 comments:

  1. Hi Patricia,
    I have a feeling you will be much happier in your new place! Sometimes, when I have a challenge before me, I try to focus on the "prize" and just getting though hour by hour of the challenge! Sending you the strength you need!
    Karen in VA

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  2. I'm looking forward to hearing all about your new apartment, and, especially, the new neighborhood, and your adventures living among your Mexican neighbors. Like you, I frequently worry about ''changes'' before the fact, but almost always once it's done I enjoy it -- new things, new stimulation. Good luck!

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  3. I was just wondering if you had moved yet. It is understandable being angry but you are right it is only hurting you. Wow, taking the furniture down with ropes!

    Hope the move goes smoothly and I am excited for you and your two pets! Wishing you all the best.

    Cathy

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  4. When I am facing a stressful situation I just keep projecting to a day ahead, a week ahead, a month (or six) ahead - knowing in that time it will all be over - will all have been done, will have smoothed out, new routines will be in place and life will go on. And I know all will be well and my worries will be for naught. And it comes to pass.

    Let the others move you - I say that's why God made strong young men (or mechanics, etc.)! Let them do it and surrender to supervising. Everything will be moved before you know it. Trust. Breathe. Go with the flow. Breathe. Be thankful. Breathe. Cuddle Chico. Breathe. Enjoy nesting in your new place. Breathe. It IS a gift, a blessing in disguise.

    I just know you're going to be SO much happier here! Can't wait to see pictures and hear how you've settled in. Sending good thoughts and hugs, and if I was there I'd help you.

    I

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    1. Thank you Barbara. So kind of you. P

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    2. Hi Pat: Little by little is will all sort itself out. Try and relax and I know you will enjoy your new place.
      Hugs. P.

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  5. Hi Pat,

    I hope the move went well and you and the pets are started to get settled in. The adjustments will be many, of course. Let us know how you are doing.

    Scott in TX

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  6. Hi Scott, thank you. I am in the midst of it now. Exhausted but happy. P

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  7. "Exhausted, but happy." Just the oucome I was hoping for. Hope your knee is better and the pets are settling in. Take care.

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    1. Hi Pat, why did I say around that grumpy old man all those years? Oh yes, because of Chico.So glad to be free and have Chico. P

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    2. Hi Pat, all is well. Getting Internet soon. P

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    3. Send an email to me with your new address please. See you soon. Donna

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  8. Hi,
    My wife and I are coming down to Chapala to live in June of 2016 and I have been searching through your past blogs for a hotel that you recommended. It was in the town of Chapala and was fairly inexpensive. Would you remember the name of it and would you still recommend it? We have looked at Hotel Villa Samary online....have you stayed there and would you recommend that one? Thanks for any info.
    Michael and Patty Kane

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    1. Sorry, I don't know that hotel. The one I stayed in is just half a block up from the Chapala plaza. No name in front. Look for the pet store. It is above it. P

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