I have come to a crossroad with my blog. I have been doing it almost on a daily basis for a year and a half now. I have taken hundreds of photos. I have spent so much time on the computer that I have developed a pain in my right arm that never heals. In other words, I have become obsessed with it. This is not necessarily a bad thing. It gives me something to do. It connects me up to a lot of wonderful new friends.
When my son first set this blog up for me he said, You probably won't make money on it but you will make a lot of new friends. At that time I thought, Why would I want to make new friends? I have three good friends now. That is all I need. But I did the blog everyday and I started meeting people. I have always been a very private person. I spend a lot of time alone or with a dog and I like living like that. But this blogging has gotten me out of myself.
Yesterday I spent the morning at the Lake Chapala Society with a small group of women, several of them I had not met before, all through the blog. It was fun. One of the women at the table said she thought I had changed since starting the blog. She has been reading it almost since the beginning. Yes, I had to agree with her. I have changed because of it. Besides being a bit obsessive/compulsive about doing it, I have become more confident and social. I am not so dependent on those three friends for my social life. I feel more like I belong to this community. People recognize me from the blog and stop and talk with me. When I meet someone who has been reading my blog I feel understood. Included. I have always been an outsider. The observer. So this is a major change for me. Therapy in a way.
But now I am at a crossroad. I received notice from my blog account that I can't put on anymore photos. I don't understand it enough to figure out why. All I know is that I have to start paying to put on more photos. I am maybe making two cents a day with the blog. No one pays me to put on photos of their bed and breakfasts or their houses for rent. I have just been doing that for people. But now that I have this decision to make, I am going to change that. I have to delete many photos and blog postings in order to have more space for new ones. And now I am going to be extremely careful of what photos I put on. Not so many. And not things that are advertising someone's place of business. You can get that information from other sites on the web.
My son said to me that my blog has turned into a photo blog. As I have been going through them I see he is right. I have been taking far too many photos and many of them are repeats. That is because I am a creature of habit. I do the same things all the time. The markets, the Malecons, sunsets, etc. And my subjects are the same; dogs, cats, children, lovers, old people, beautiful young men and women, interesting faces...... I am not a travel photographer because I don't travel. I hang around town. Maybe that is one thing I need to change. If I didn't spend so much time taking local photos and putting them on the blog, I would have more time to travel. So maybe after this house sitting job, I will take a little trip somewhere and then I will have something new to add to this blog site.
The other choice is to just not do it anymore. For one thing, my arm might heal. That would be very nice. My mother always said I did everything in extremes. Moderation was her motto. But I have never been a moderate person. I could try it. Take less photos, not put on postings so often, clean up the blog by deleting the older ones, etc.
I also need to think about my ego. How much of this obsessive blogging is related to my ego? That is not a good thing. I have to remember that my blog is of very little consequence in the world and not to let my ego control how much time I put into it. Having an arm that doesn't hurt is probably more important than having a stroked ego. So, these are my thoughts this morning. I am going to spend the day going through the blog and deleting things. (That is, if my sore arm will allow it.) Time to make some changes......