I wanted to be objective enough to be able to take photos of my doctor and the clinic but I was unable to do that. Something about that big C word that made me unable to think straight. I am so glad my friend was at the appointment with me because I couldn't relax enough to ask the questions I had written down. She asked them for me.
I like the doctor. Dr. Arch. He comes into the Mascaras clinic to see patients but his office is in Guadalajara. He charged me 500 pesos for the consultation. He seems very kind and competent. I have to go for more tests at the hospital in Guadalajara on Friday. Maybe by then I will be able to regain my emotional balance enough to take some photos of the hospital, at least of the outside of the hospital. It feels too invasive once I get inside of these healing places to be snapping photos. Plus, I become so scared that it takes all my energy just to maintain. Objectivity goes out the window.
I don't know if I will be able to blog much this week with this problem hanging over my head. Time seems to stand still. I have no energy to do things except obsess. I am sure anyone who has been through health scares can relate to how I am feeling at the moment. I don't want to go into these dark spaces on my blog. It would be better not to write at all than to share these moments.
I will try to take some happy photos during this waiting period. Maybe that will keep my mind occupied. I need to stay away from researching online about all the complications that can happen. My theory from when I broke my ankle is this; people write about all the problems online because they are in pain and need to reach out to others. If there were no problems, then they don't bother writing about it. So it is probably best to stay away from compulsively reading about all the terrible experiences others have had with similar problems as mine. I remember one person online saying that she had to have her foot cut off after she broke her ankle because it didn't heal right. Now that I didn't need to read! Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.....
Hi, Pat -
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing what you are going through. With your large blog-family, you will have many people praying for you and sending positive energy in your direction. A strong hug for you and the friend who will be by your side.
Pat Y. - now in Thailand
Hi Pat, Thank you for that encouragement. I hope you are having fun in Thailand. P
DeleteIt is not your time-you'll be fine. How do I know this? How do I know who is on the other end of the phone before I pick it up? I just do. Breath in and breath out, this is a bump in your path-you will be fine.
ReplyDeleteThank you Norm.... A big hug to you. P
DeleteSorry to read about your health concerns. I have known someone who had their thyroid removed with no problems. Hopefully, you will not require surgery, but if you do, please know so many of us are sending positive reinforcement your way. Hang in there - you will be just fine!
ReplyDeleteHI Connie, That is good to know. I need to read more positive stories from people with similar problems. I appreciate your encouragement. P
DeleteHi, Pat.
ReplyDeleteI have been following your Blogs....
My best wishes are with you! and many happy thoughts.
Take great care of yourself!
Min from VA.
Thank you Min for all the support you have given me. It means a lot to me. P
DeleteScary times, doing my best to send positive vibes your way. Just before Xmas last year a specialist mentioned the word tumour and cancer to my husband, after some tests it was not to be. Thankfully. As for blogging, blog what you feel like, good or bad, happy, or sad I will be here. A big hug from me.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I appreciate your good wishes. P
DeleteWishing you a good prognosis when you go for your tests. Please know that you brighten my dreary (winter) life and I look forward to your photos and blog.
ReplyDeleteLinda in Indiana
Thank you Linda. I am so surprised at the many comments that people have written to encourage me. It means a lot to me.
DeletePat, sending massively positive thoughts from Arizona. So glad to see your blog family rallying.
ReplyDeleteCheers,
Sylva
Hi Sylva, Thank you so much. Yes, I am amazed as I scroll down through the encouraging e mails. It really helps with my state of mind. P
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