Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Morning Thoughts--An Unjust World
I haven't been writing much in my morning thoughts lately. Last time I wrote something that I thought was meaningful, that same afternoon, I saw the news about those forty three missing school boys and later on I learned that they had been murdered and their bodies burned beyond recognition. My morning thoughts didn't seem so meaningful anymore. I quit trying to take my thoughts seriously. They are just thoughts and what are thoughts? They don't change anything in the world. Violence trumps thoughts and words every time. (In the short run.)
I am just a powerless older expat woman, living in a country that I do not understand and I cannot change. I am not even allowed to get involved in their politics. Not that I would ever have the desire to do that. I have no faith in politics or politicians. I am not out to change the world. (I can't even change the locked gate situation in my own neighborhood!)
I just want to have a simple life with my daily routines to keep me occupied. I do not want to think about students being murdered and their parents waiting for them to come home. But I have been forced to look at this reality. Violence cannot be ignored forever. If I want to continue living in Mexico, then I have to accept that things like this happen here. They happen all over the world! This is not a fair or just world. It can be cruel and evil.
My friend Marie is involved in the Course in Miracles. She believes that everything happens for a reason and there is no evil in the world. I cannot believe that. Was it just that those students were murdered? Was it reasonable that their parents are suffering now and will suffer the rest of their lives, missing their sons? My answer is: NO.....
I have been dealing with my disillusionment and feelings of helplessness and the unimportance of the simple life that I have created for myself in this foreign country. How do we make a difference in the face of extreme violence? How do we find meaning in our lives? My morning thoughts are just whispers in the wind. I have no answers to these questions. So I have been silent on the subject until now.