This morning I put several photos on this post that I took by holding the camera at arm's length from my face. I decided to take those off. They seemed to have stirred up too much controversy......I don't understand why exactly. Maybe I was just a little too honest about my internal feelings. I have to remember to be more impersonal with my blogs. They weren't inappropriate photos, but they were self reflective and maybe that is a bit too much for a site like this. I appreciate the positive feedback from those who wrote to me. I apologize to anyone who thought I was too honest about my internal feelings. (I got some responses through my e mail which I didn't post on the blog.) Maybe it is too hard for some people to hear about the self doubts of others. Maybe I should always put on a front of being the invulnerable writer, the observer, the eternal optimist. Sorry for putting another crack in that persona and sharing my inner self doubts. 
Friday, July 17, 2009
A Photo of Me and My Buddy, Chico
This morning I put several photos on this post that I took by holding the camera at arm's length from my face. I decided to take those off. They seemed to have stirred up too much controversy......I don't understand why exactly. Maybe I was just a little too honest about my internal feelings. I have to remember to be more impersonal with my blogs. They weren't inappropriate photos, but they were self reflective and maybe that is a bit too much for a site like this. I appreciate the positive feedback from those who wrote to me. I apologize to anyone who thought I was too honest about my internal feelings. (I got some responses through my e mail which I didn't post on the blog.) Maybe it is too hard for some people to hear about the self doubts of others. Maybe I should always put on a front of being the invulnerable writer, the observer, the eternal optimist. Sorry for putting another crack in that persona and sharing my inner self doubts. 
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This thing about guys, it is always there, like I'm 37 and there are no guys available, so don't worry it will come. And I think you are a very nice looking woman, so cheer up, girl!
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ReplyDeleteYou are being too hard on yourself!
I have been reading your blog for long times and found, you are wonderful,caring woman!
look from within...
but,I understand
Thank you two for the comments. Or maybe it is just one person making both? It is funny, I just posted those photos. Instant feedback. I don't feel so alone. Patricia
ReplyDeleteHey Patricia, you and I are the same age and I share many of your feelings. Lots of women I know express these types of thoughts about men, age, self esteem, etc. Let me just say this about you...I find it heartwarming how open you are in expressing yourself on your blog. I look forward to checking the blog every day because you share so many great photos. I love it that you are so "real" in speaking what is on your mind. I see you as very warm, kind, and caring! One thing I learned a long time ago is that "happiness is a choice". When you are happy good self esteem naturally follows. You go girl!!!
ReplyDeleteHi Linda, Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate your positive feedback. When is your birthday? Mine is Sept.8th, 1944. I was a war baby. Sometimes I think that I get too personal on my blog. But then I think, Why not? It is my blog and I can say whatever I want to say. It is nice to have that kind of freedom and then getting positive responses is so rewarding. It makes me feel more connected to people. I am such a loner most of the time. Thank you. Patricia
ReplyDeleteHey again...My birthday is Dec. 17, 1944. Yep, I was a war baby too. My dad didn't see me until I was way more then a year old.
ReplyDeleteI do not think you get too personal on your blog. You speak from the heart and it comes through to your readers. Good job! It is because of the way you write about your thoughts and feelings that I intuitively feel we have had many similar life experiences, including family stuff and being loners. I hope we get a chance to talk about some of these things over lunch someday.
Hi Linda, Thank you for writing back. I am older than you. I am older than dirt! When my father came back from the war I was just old enough to talk. My mother said that my brother and I were afraid of him. I kept pointing to his photo and saying, That's daddy. My father finally got upset and grabbed both of us and held us on the bed while we cried until we fell asleep. So much for coming back directly from the front lines!!!! I do hope we will meet someday. Patricia
ReplyDeleteWell, I somehow lost the message I just wrote. Urgh! Anyway, I went through the same crying when my dad came home from the war. Mom says I did not want him to hold me or pick me up. This went on for a few days. Another parallel in our lives, huh?
ReplyDeleteSo you are older than dirt are you??? Well, since I am a mere 3 1/2 months younger then you that would make me older than dirt too. No way! People who are older than dirt do not go out dancing and listening to live music like you do all the time. Laughing and having fun are great ways to feel young again. It is great for one's self esteem too!!!!!!!!!! Soooo, have a fun weekend filled with laughter and good times with friends. Wish I could tag along.
Man, you snooze, you lose! I'm sorry I missed your self portraits. Patricia, PLEASE don't edit yourself. I love your personality as it shows through your pictures and your occasional more personal updates. As you said, it's your blog, and you can say whatever you want. Real life is messy, and people don't need to read about others' perfect lives. Keep writing!
ReplyDeleteHi Sarah and Linda, You two women make me cry. We are so much alike. I really appreciate your positive comments on my blog. It makes working on it all worthwhile. Thank you both, Patricia
ReplyDeleteHi Patrica, I check your blog all the time you must have pulled those pictures fast, as you say it is your blog you should write what you want, if people don't like it then they don't have to read it, I think you are a wonderful real person, be true to yourself.
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Hi Cheryl, Yes those photos were only on a few hours. Even my son in Prague this week saw them. I pulled them right off. Thank you for your positive comment.....I like you too and can hardly wait until you get down here. Your friend, Patricia. P.S. I haven't gotten to that hummingbird place yet. I am always so busy, doing nothing. It is great.
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